Unban Request

[Stars]

Hello.

 

I’d like to request an unban. You see, 8 months ago shit really came down. Let me explain.

 

First of all, it was probably the wrong thing to evade a TS ban and joke around with what I had thought (unfortunately) were good friends I had made throughout my GMod career. I was a proud veteran and felt extremely bitter at what had happened to me thus far (approximately 4 months). So maybe that wasn’t a good idea.

 

How could GMod’s 2 divisional staffs from 2015 go from saving the division to being permanently banned? Were they actually devils in hiding? Truthfully, we were one of the most dedicated players of the division. I truly mean that. But let’s focus on me because I’m a millennial and millennials are narcissists. Just kidding. It’s my unban appeal and this should focus on me.

 

Zombie Survival was virtually one of the only games I ever truly enjoyed and dedicated so much time into. In fact, it was the only game I actually went on for any appreciable amount of time. I was promoted to mod, a position I very much wanted because of the rampant rule breaking. When I was promoted to staff, I could not believe my ears. I am still thankful to everyone who was supportive during my first month as staff: those who still stuck with me afterwards and gave out great pointers. I thank meek for his trust, his thoughtfulness, and his continued faith and support in me despite fierce opposition only to realize it was the right thing to do. I thank the generation I was spawned into in ZS, who mentored me. When I finally was properly adjusted to the dS seat (for the most part), I started to really try and get things underway: to keep the original HG-style of ZS but keep the player base entertained. The ultimate goal, of course, was less shit talking of the server and more teamwork. I wanted to see people striving to get better, instead of updates that catered to the new. I wanted the old skill curve. I tried to continue what my predecessor(s) planned and did. There were problems I knew I could solve with some help.

 

As a staff, however, I had no plans to become the next leader. I did not want to become one. I was happy with my area of administration. It was what and where my passion was. I was repeatedly frustrated when my attempts to have something pass through or to report a recurring bug to our then coder only to have it blocked or ignored. It was like talking to a brick wall, which extended to my time as veteran too. You must realize that feedback was coming from the community through us. Your way of chain of command and the infrastructure is extremely intimidating and confusing to most of the players there. I had many of them personally talk to me before relaying it to leadership. I repeatedly thought out my ideas (and theirs) to a huge extent. I saw promises “delayed†and plans botched. Half-assed and half-done works were not well received by the community, which I felt partially responsible for.

 

Things went down a slippery steep slope when the direction had turned 180 and prime ZS players, those who were true veterans started getting banned or left entirely. I carefully typed out several long explanations of updates and ideas, gave criticism where it was needed. They got sharper as time dragged on because of the lack of sincere thought given by leadership. We were still going in the wrong direction.

I just want to underline the danger of power. I’ve had 8 months to rethink things through. Maybe I shouldn’t have played around and ‘trolled’. But I sure do know the entire situation wouldn’t have happened if my passion wasn’t messed around with. I'd like to set one fact straight: I've never ever trolled any other server during my time as an HG member+. Never.

 

Thanks for hearing me out. If you want the full talk with me I will be more than happy to discuss what happened with me and certain people. You can add me on steam, we can talk on TS, whatever. I actually do want to discuss what happened between me and skay there.

 

-TheAtrocity

Edited August 25, 2016 by Stars

[Sirius]

Apologies that no one has responded to this. Leadership is reviewing this request.

[Sirius]

Unbanned. Be good.