Watermelon Jackson Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 (edited) My brothers and sisters (Kimzy, Jella, Jess, etc.), I love you guys. Know that much. I recently had a heart attack, I didn't believe it either, but it turns out I did. I went to get checked out, they found I have a sinus arrhythmia and that indeed I did have a heart attack at 19. I feel it...I feel it every minute, I'm weaker. I can't workout like I used to, I can't yell like I used to, I can't be me. I can't even bang like JJK anymore (I have failed you master). They did blood work, and found a high concentration of troponin present, which is a sign of heart damage. Any sort of stress, makes my heart weaker. I can feel it in my body. Right now, my family that raised me is splitting violently apart. My mom is going on her own way, she can't handle my sister and I (we're too different from her old school mentality), and my sister is going down a path that doesn't look too bright. It's a vicious cycle you could say, mom pushes sister, sister flies farther, mom pushes harder. I'm not really sure where I'm going to live, I have an apartment and a car and shit, but that's all from the grace of my father. He's a big ball of stress too, he's trying to change me and stop me from this and that. He's a millionaire and he sure as hell got that way by being selfish, but I can't knock him down, that sort of power earns him respect no matter how he did it. So now I'm stuck in this broken home for one more week or so, boxes being packed around me, and on a side note when I helped my mom clean out the garage I cried inside since everything is getting tossed to the Salvation Army n shit, I have a broken body that could crap out on me at anytime (no matter how much I still try to workout), and to make things worse, I'm not gonna have internet for a good long time once this house breaks apart. I love you guys. I can't say I've had as much fun anywhere else in my life, nor have I had the respect and admiration of so many people (even if I'm a disrespectful dickwad troll, but alas I do it with class) in any community before. I woke up today on a couch to screaming and yelling, and I instantly felt that vibe permeate my fucked up heart and the pains kicked it. I feel pretty dizzy even writing this, but eh, nothing a game or two with good buddies couldn't fix. Drugs aren't an escape, for me, happiness is an escape. My pothead ass would love nothing more than to play a bunch of games with all of you in as little time as I have. This isn't a goodbye, just an update on shit in my life. TL;DR: Shit's fuckin' up, let's rock some servers. <3 Love, Watermelon/Nick Edited July 17, 2012 by Watermelon Jackson More girls than I remember Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JessicaJoy Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 Stay strong kid. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
iDigitaL- Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 Stop using fucking drugs nerd, anyways like jess said keep strong take a break and just rest allot Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Watermelon Jackson Posted July 17, 2012 Author Share Posted July 17, 2012 Stop using fucking drugs nerd, anyways like jess said keep strong take a break and just rest allot Ya know what caused the damage that lead to the heart attack was actually my prescribed dosage of Ritalin when I was a child. They said 10 years of METHylphenidate could definitely have fucked with something. People with congenial heart defects shouldn't be prescribed Ritalin...turns out my psychiatrist didn't look into my genealogy when he wrote his little notepads. I find it ironic and retarded that the legal drug they prescribed me, fucked me up more than any illegal drug I've done so far. tsk tsk tsk America. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Magic Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 Don't worry you'll recover but stay strong! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kimzy Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 I feel so sad reading this. Please stop using whatever bullshit you are using, even though you and so many others will keep saying it's good for you, it's not :/ Take good care of yourself melon <3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gravity Kitteh Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 Damn, Talked to you yesterday and you looked just fine, Like everyone allready said Stay strong bro! Here's a free cat! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Watermelon Jackson Posted July 17, 2012 Author Share Posted July 17, 2012 Damn, Talked to you yesterday and you looked just fine, Like everyone allready said Stay strong bro! Here's a free cat! I try to hide my problems, there's enough stress in the world. But idk, I needed to vent to someone so I posted. Kimzy I love you don't worry about me like that, just know this: When I toke my heart rate decreases and the angina (chest pain) decreases. I'm gonna see if I can get a vaporizer from a friend or something, get rid of the smoking, but get the benefits of the substance. <3 Either way dawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww FREE KITTTTYYYYYYYY!!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
(Headband)(EG) Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 My brothers and sister (Kimzy), I love you guys. Know that much. I recently had a heart attack, I didn't believe it either, but it turns out I did. I went to get checked out, they found I have a sinus arrhythmia and that indeed I did have a heart attack at 19. I feel it...I feel it every minute, I'm weaker. I can't workout like I used to, I can't yell like I used to, I can't be me. I can't even bang like JJK anymore (I have failed you master). They did blood work, and found a high concentration of troponin present, which is a sign of heart damage. Any sort of stress, makes my heart weaker. I can feel it in my body. Right now, my family that raised me is splitting violently apart. My mom is going on her own way, she can't handle my sister and I (we're too different from her old school mentality), and my sister is going down a path that doesn't look too bright. It's a vicious cycle you could say, mom pushes sister, sister flies farther, mom pushes harder. I'm not really sure where I'm going to live, I have an apartment and a car and shit, but that's all from the grace of my father. He's a big ball of stress too, he's trying to change me and stop me from this and that. He's a millionaire and he sure as hell got that way by being selfish, but I can't knock him down, that sort of power earns him respect no matter how he did it. So now I'm stuck in this broken home for one more week or so, boxes being packed around me, and on a side note when I helped my mom clean out the garage I cried inside since everything is getting tossed to the Salvation Army n shit, I have a broken body that could crap out on me at anytime (no matter how much I still try to workout), and to make things worse, I'm not gonna have internet for a good long time once this house breaks apart. I love you guys. I can't say I've had as much fun anywhere else in my life, nor have I had the respect and admiration of so many people (even if I'm a disrespectful dickwad troll, but alas I do it with class) in any community before. I woke up today on a couch to screaming and yelling, and I instantly felt that vibe permeate my fucked up heart and the pains kicked it. I feel pretty dizzy even writing this, but eh, nothing a game or two with good buddies couldn't fix. Drugs aren't an escape, for me, happiness is an escape. My pothead ass would love nothing more than to play a bunch of games with all of you in as little time as I have. This isn't a goodbye, just an update on shit in my life. TL;DR: Shit's fuckin' up, let's rock some servers. <3 Love, Watermelon/Nick Not gonna lie son, Almost cried at the level of deepness. Keep ya head up homie. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gravity Kitteh Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 I try to hide my problems, there's enough stress in the world. But idk, I needed to vent to someone so I posted. Kimzy I love you don't worry about me like that, just know this: When I toke my heart rate decreases and the angina (chest pain) decreases. I'm gonna see if I can get a vaporizer from a friend or something, get rid of the smoking, but get the benefits of the substance. <3 Either way dawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww FREE KITTTTYYYYYYYY!!!!! Here's another one! <3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jesus2 Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 get better buddy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cal45 Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 Take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
WhyYouNoDie? Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 turns out my psychiatrist didn't look into my genealogy when he wrote his little notepads. Sue him get some money! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ASCII Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 Im gonna fucking cry, Damn my prayers are with you. Im gonna roll a blunt and pray. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Plastered Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 i love you baby boy & i WILL come see you in glendale! in fact im get dem digitz right now so i can do so. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Watermelon Jackson Posted July 17, 2012 Author Share Posted July 17, 2012 Here's another one! <3 FUCKING KITTTYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JJK Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 ask dizy if she will let you stay here after 3 weeks i expect some rent or blowjobs Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Elephant Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 i love you jackson stay strong my lebanese cheese Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Barkly1 Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 Man this is so sad and I feel so bad. Listen, even though you have horrible sickness but if you have hope and faith and be strong trust me you will be great and would be okay, it's just that you'll have to be strong and feel good man. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Darkwing Duck Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 Stay strong watermelon, I hope you get better man! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ExGBrian Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 I hope you get better! I know u live kinda near me so if you need help moving and such I'm willing to help you dude! Just pm me with the details and I'll let u know Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CletusP Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 I love you Nick<3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dolan Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 Hope you get better :') Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Suicide Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 Get well soon you little troll. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RageQuit Posted July 17, 2012 Share Posted July 17, 2012 That's some serious shit there. Get better and take it easy, homes. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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